I’ve been wanting to do this video for so long but the timing just wasn’t right.
I tried to sit down and do it, more than once, but the words just weren’t flowing.
I wasn’t ready.
One thing I’ve learned recently is to trust the timing of the universe.
I wrote more on that here, fresh off of my recent Forbes feature. What was so amazing was that I got to film this video the day after the article went live. The energy was so palpable and positive, so supportive and filled with love. It was the perfect state for me to be in to finally share my story.
It’s hard to do that, you know? To tell your life story in front of the camera. If you’ve never had to do so, I’m sure you can imagine! For me, part of the challenge is the sheer amount of what I want to say. I’ve been through a lot in my life and while I got a good bit of it out for this video, other parts had to be cut. One of the many reasons I know I’ll write a book one day.
But for now, this is a good start.
I begin by talking about my childhood. I grew up without a mother – she was an alcoholic and left when I was two – while my father also struggled with alcoholism and would later succumb to a vicious opioid addiction, estranging our relationship for all of my adult life. He passed away from cancer earlier this year, which was a very difficult time.
I also share some of the more positive chapters of my life: How I got started in cooking and landed up on ABC’s The Taste, before moving to New York City to launch a pop-up restaurant and later my own catering company. And, of course, I share the journey of Salt House.
Throughout all of this, creativity has been my biggest source of joy and healing. It’s worked in tandem with my mindfulness practice, helping me get to know myself on a deeper level and, most importantly, learn to accept myself. But beyond all of this healing and growth work, nothing makes me happier than when I get to create – whether that’s in the kitchen, the design and decor of my home, or through my paintbrush.
I don’t, however, know if I ever mentioned in this video (I’m telling you, it’s hard!) that at one point, I didn’t even believe I was creative.
I was having my astrology charts done for the first time, and I was working in finance fresh out of college. The astrologer looked me dead in the eye and said, “No, this isn’t for you. You’re going to do something much more creative with your life.”
I’m telling you, I almost laughed because it felt so ridiculous. Me, creative? Thinking back, I was always a writer growing up, but I just never considered myself creative because I couldn’t draw or do anything “artistic” in that way.
Little did I know that creativity would become my life’s purpose.
Not only for myself, but for others.
I want to show the world that we are all creative and capable of finding and creating our own happiness. That no matter what we’ve been through, we have a choice. We can do the work to get to know ourselves. We can learn to love ourselves. We can create the world we want to live in.
We all deserve it.
I hope my story will inspire your journey in some way.
Please don’t hesitate to comment below if any of this resonates with you, or if you’d like to know more about anything I’ve mentioned. Or, you can reach out to me privately. I always love hearing from you on Instagram.
All my love (and then some),